Sunday, April 16, 2006
do you know...
that every living thing has a feeling?
even if you treat me as a thing. can you spare a thought for how i feel? you dont have to say anything. just keep quiet.
do you know...
the way you hate to be treated by others, i may not like it too?
DO YOU KNOW?
THAT I AM HUMAN TOO?
a few hours have since past since whatever happened, but i would like to get this off my chest once and for all.
take my bucket of water for example. the quantity exceeds what the bucket can hold.
zy! dont let her eat it!
zy! take her away!
zy! dont let her salivate!
FUCK you all!
you are not that far away, you can see that she's not eating anything. you can see that i'm holding her.
i brought her away. he came and tried tempting her.
you start all over again.
can you not see that the door is closed? can you not see that i was trying to ask him to get lost already?
ALL you know how to do is sit on your damn ass, play your damn game, open your huge mouth and order me around.
WHAT am i to you?
If you do not trust me in controlling her, DO IT YOURSELF!
What did i do to deserve this? I may have been soft with her, but i think i do know what i'm doing.
Do i not deserve that little bit of respect you get from me?
Every demand has a price.
i wont say i'm sorry when i shouted. i dont think i am wrong. your face. your pride, were gone the moment you wont stop ordering me around. unless your friends are the same as you.
I'll just say thanks. Thanks for downgrading me.
he walked off, i let jazz out. she didnt follow him. instead, she showed she was sorry, and comforted me a little.
Jazz. you spell that with appreciation.
I am not Jazz mad.
Neither am i obsess over her.
I love her. simple as that.
Love. one syllabus, only 4 letters. a simple word.
Its meaning however, is much deeper that what anyone can see.
What it means, cannot be replaced with words. its unspoken.
I meant it everytime i use that word, and i have not regretted. not once.
Back to the point, as much as i tried to keep in control, it was too overwhelming.
That was as much as i can take.
Is it too much to ask for someone who is
willing to listen? Is it too much for me to say that god has been unfair? why am i left alone, when others have plenty around them?
so many questions i asked. yet none answered. all people do is comment on my actions. why do you not speak up when i asked then?
People say they dont understand me. none were willing to listen. so there i have all the great people in the world expecting me to do things in consideration of the opposition's feelings. Just because that person may be yoyu friend, yoou best friend, your girlfriend, AM i not human too? AM i not as alive as you are? DO i not have feelings too?
haha. so much from refraining for vulgarities. i'm not removing that.
haiz. how i wish i could just stay with jazz longer.
Posted at 21:02
